talking to myself...

i guess i really am not meant to have friends and you know what...i am SO fine with that.
i am who i am and after 34 years of trying to be the best friend i can possibly be i am done trying to be a friend and still feeling left out.
i am not writing this for sympathy trust me,it simply makes me feel good to write it.
nobody reads this stupid blog anyway...it is just my personal rant and thats the way i like it.
shock-o-rama...i really do have feelings and a heart and am a pretty decent person but i will not be fake or act a way i do not feel is me so...
i am lucky enough to be blessed with an amzing husband who the longer we are together it just gets better. he loves me for me and our 2 kids are the best in the world.
it took over 30 years but i have truly found an amazing friend who i consider my sister in every sense of the word. i love her with all my heart and we both know we were sent to each other for a purpose.
I AM BLESSED...even if i dont deserve it.